Shippaisaku Shoujo
ああ ほらまた間違えた これで何度？何回目
aa hora mata machigaeta kore de nando? nankai me
ねえ ほらふさいで立って ぽっかり浮き出る傷跡
nee hora fusaide tatte pokkari ukideru kizuato
ああ ほらまたごまかした 見て見ぬ振りお上手ね
aa hora mata gomakashita mite minu furi ojouzu ne
もう ほら何言われたって 誰も私を望まない
mou hora nani iwaretatte dare mo watashi wo nozomanai
むき出していたい いたい
mukidashite itai itai
強がっていたい いたい
tsuyogatte itai itai
息絶えていたい いたいんだよ
ikizumatte itai itain dayo
私って失敗作だって 捨てていらない困難だって
watashitte shippai saku datte satte iranai konan datte
何やったって頑張ったって騙らしいや
nani yattatte ganbattatte damerashii ya
愛 愛 愛されたくて 偽って
ai ai aisare takute itsuwatte
もっと もっと笑顔でいればいいかな
motto motto egao de ireba ii kana
ああ ほらまたすりむいた これで何度？何回目
aa hora mata surimuita kore de nando? nankai me?
ねえ ほら隠してたって 地割れ浮き出るトラウマ
nee hora kakushitetatte jiwari ukideru torauma
ああ ほらまた飲み込んだ 済まし顔がお上手ね
aa hora mata nomikonda sumashi gao ga ojouzu ne
もう ほら何言われたってあざけられあざだらけ
mou hora nani iwaretatte azakerare aza darake
閉塞感にゆらゆら
heisokukan ni yurayura
裂島感にくらくら
rettoukan ni kurakura
息絶えてからからなの
ikizumatte karakara nano
私って失敗作だってなっていらない困難だって
watashi tte shippai saku datte natte iranai konan datte
何やったって頑張ったって無駄みたいだ
nani yattatte ganbattatte muda mitai da
生まれてきた意味が欲しくて
umarete kita imi ga hoshikute
もっと もっと自然に笑えばいいかな
motto motto shizen ni waraeba ii kana
神様 もしも生まれ変わることができたら
kami-sama moshimo umarekawaru koto ga dekitara
愛される子になれますように
aisareru ko ni nare masu youni
泣きやんだ鼓動を子守唄に
naki yanda kodou wo komoriuta ni
きっと きっと明日は笑えるよね
kitto kitto ashita wa waraeru yo ne
間違いだらけにおやすみなさい
machigai darake ni oyasuminasai
Failed Girl
Ah, look, I messed up again, how many times? What number is this?
Hey, look, I'm standing here blocked, with scars that just won’t fade away.
Ah, look, I just played it off again, you’re so good at pretending not to see.
No matter what they say, look, nobody wants me anyway.
I want to be exposed, it hurts.
I want to act tough, it hurts.
I want to breathe my last, it really hurts.
They say I’m a failure, I don’t need this shit, it’s too much to handle.
No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, it feels like a joke.
Love, love, I just want to be loved, so I fake it,
Maybe if I smile more, it’ll be alright.
Ah, look, I scraped myself again, how many times? What number is this?
Hey, look, even if I hide it, the cracks show my trauma.
Ah, look, I swallowed it again, you’re so good at putting on that calm face.
No matter what they say, look, I’m mocked and covered in bruises.
Swaying in this suffocating feeling,
Dizzy from this sense of isolation,
I’m gasping for air, feeling so dry.
They say I’m a failure, I don’t need this shit, it’s pointless.
No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, it feels like a waste.
I just want to know the meaning of being born,
Maybe if I smile more naturally, it’ll be alright.
God, if I could be reborn,
I hope I can be a child who is loved.
Let the heartbeat that has stopped be a lullaby,
Surely, surely tomorrow I can smile, right?
Goodnight to all these mistakes.