Failure Girl
ああ ほらまた間違えた
aa hora mata machigaeta
これで何度？何回目
kore de nando? nankai me?
ねえ ほらふさいで立って
nee hora fusaide tatte
ぽっかり浮き出る傷跡
pokkari ukideru kizuato
ああ ほらまたごまかした
aa hora mata gomakashita
見て見ぬ振りお上手ね
mite minu furi ojouzu ne
もう ほら何言われたって
mou hora nani iwareta tte
誰も私を望まない
dare mo watashi o nozomanai
むき出していたい痛い痛い
mukidashite itai itai
強がっていたい痛い痛い
tsuyogatte itai itai
息絶えていたい痛いんだよ
ikizumatte itai itain da yo
私って失敗作だって
watashi tte shippai saku datte
さっていらない困難だって
sa tte iranai konan datte
何やったって頑張ったって騙らしいや
nani yattatte ganbattatte damerashii ya
愛愛愛されたくて嘘ついて
ai ai aisare takute itsuwatte
もっともっと笑顔でいればいいかな
motto motto egao de ireba ii kana
ああ ほらまたすりむいた
aa hora mata surimuita
これで何度？何回目
kore de nando? nankai me?
ねえ ほら隠してたって
nee hora kakushitetatte
じわり浮き出るトラウマ
jiwari ukideru torauma
ああ ほらまた飲み込んだ
aa hora mata nomikonda
すました顔がお上手ね
sumashi gao ga ojouzu ne
もう ほら何言われたって
mou hora nani iwareta
ってあざけられあざだらけ
tte azakerare aza darake
閉塞感にゆらゆら
heisokukan ni yurayura
裂島感にくらくら
rettoukan ni kurakura
息絶えてカラカラなの
ikizumatte karakara na no
私って失敗作だって
watashi tte shippai saku datte
なっていらない困難だって
natte iranai konan datte
何やったって頑張ったって無駄みたいだ
nani yattatte ganbattatte muda mitai da
生まれてきた意味が欲しくて
umarete kita imi ga hoshikute
もっともっと自然に笑えばいいかな
motto motto shizen ni waraeba ii kana
神様 もしも生まれ変わる
kamisama moshimo umarekawaru
ことができたら
koto ga dekitara
愛される子になれますように
aisareru ko ni nare masu youni
泣きやんだ鼓動を子守唄に
naki yanda kodou o komoriuta ni
きっときっと明日は笑えるよね
kitto kitto ashita wa waraeru yo ne
間違いだらけに
machigai darake ni
おやすみなさい
oyasumi nasai
Failure Girl
Ah, look, I made a mistake again
How many times is this? What number?
Hey, look, standing in failure
The scars that suddenly come to the surface
Ah, look, I deceived again
You're good at pretending not to see
Well, no matter what you say
No one wants me
I want to expose the pain, it hurts, it hurts
I want to pretend to be strong, it hurts, it hurts
I want to suffocate, it hurts
I'm a failure, they say
I'm not needed, they say
No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, it's all a lie
I want to be loved, so I lie
Maybe I should just smile more
Ah, look, I scraped myself again
How many times is this? What number?
Hey, even if I hide it
The trauma slowly surfaces
Ah, look, I swallowed it again
You're good at keeping a straight face
Well, no matter what you say
I'm mocked and covered in bruises
Swaying in a sense of closure
Dizzy in a sense of isolation
Suffocating, feeling empty
I'm a failure, they say
I'm not needed, they say
No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, it seems futile
I want to know the meaning of being born
Maybe I should just smile more naturally
God, if I could be reborn
I hope to become a child who is loved
Lull the quieted heartbeat into a lullaby
Surely, surely, tomorrow will bring a smile, right?
In a world full of mistakes
Good night