(I can't keep going through withdrawals)
(You understand it isn't all my fault)
(I promised you that I would change)
Ion't feel how you felt when you looked at me
As a child, to see things we shouldn't see
For the fact of the matter, nobody needs
Actually, after the passing, I couldn't grieve
Every time that you'd smile, I couldn't sleep
I knew what you were hidin' up underneath
And if it's a ride or die with us, somehow we split up in the distance
And I'm wonderin' what it means
I was only a baby and heard the violence
Twenty-five years later, disturbed by silence
When I learned about prison, and learned about pistols
A decade before I had a driver's license
Thank God to my mom when she heard the sirens
Thank God that we're all still alive, and I could tell you that I miss you
But I'm at the point you're at peace in the way that I am
I can't keep going through withdrawals
You understand it isn't all my fault
I promised you that I would change
I heard you tell me the same
You let the feeling fade away
I thought tomorrow might've gave us a new day
You promised me that you would change
But you don't, and it won't till were both in the grave
And you felt the same, and you felt the same
Yeah, I wish that I didn't think like this
Every time that I close my eyelids
All I see is that note you wrote
When you said goodbye, and I just hear violence
Like, why in the fuck was I not enough?
You traded it all for another drug
I needed my mom, you needed relief
And I had to call the police
Lookin' at the kid who didn't really know
Any other way to deal with the feelings ahead
Always so mad at myself and the way
I keep making my present a part of the past
I hated you for the way that you threw us away
And when you said you would change
But then I got hooked on them same pills and now I'm sayin'
I can't keep going through withdrawals
You understand it isn't all my fault
I promised you that I would change
I heard you tell me the same
You let the feeling fade away
I thought tomorrow might've gave us a new day
You promised me that you would change
But you don't, and it won't till were both in the grave
And you felt the same, and you felt the same
If time heals all, why do I still bleed?
You watched me fall, but I can't keep
Going through withdrawals
You understand it isn't all my fault
I promised you that I would change
I heard you tell me the same (tell me the same)
You let the feeling fade away
I thought tomorrow might've gave us a new day
You promised me that you would change
But you don't, and it won't till were both in the grave
And you felt the same, and you felt the same
(If time heals all, why do I still bleed?)
(You understand it isn't all my fault)
(I promised you that I would change)
(You watched me fall, but I can't keep)