There's a man who does my talking and he isn't always in
He shows up when I call him and he wears my face like skin
He's the funny one, the easy one, he runs a room on charm
Then he hands me back my body and he's gone before the alarm
There's a fist inside my temple with a schedule of its own
Comes in like a season, sets up camp behind the bone
And behind it there's a decade that I've never talked about
So I found a faster way to shut the whole thing out
I don't know the word for enough
I never learned to say it
It's never one, it's all of it
And the body's gonna pay it
It only ends when it's all gone
Or the morning finds me wrecked
I don't know the word for enough
And I've never known what's next
By the second morning I'm not chasing it at all
I'm just finishing the rest of it and waiting for the fall
And it ends when there's nothing left to take, or the body says no more
Or I come to in the daylight on somebody else's floor
I don't know the word for enough
I never learned to say it
It's never one, it's all of it
And the body's gonna pay it
It only ends when it's all gone
Or the morning finds me wrecked
I don't know the word for enough
And I've never known what's next
And here's the part I never said
It isn't that it broke me down
It's that it gave me something first
Before it ever came around
It gave me hours with no pain
It gave me words I couldn't say
It gave me two good hours of the man I should have been
And then it took the whole of me in payment for the day
And it never stopped
And it never stopped
I don't know the word for enough
And I'm not gonna fake it
I won't stand here selling you
A promise I can't make it
I know exactly what this costs
And I know what it takes
I don't know the word for enough
But I'm up, and I'm awake
Still awake
(Not today)
Still awake
(Not today)
And I don't know the word for enough