Jishou Mushoku (自傷無色)
君のような人になりたいな
kimi no you na hito ni naritai na
僕らしい人になりたいな
bokurashii hito ni naritai na
望むならそうすりゃいいけどさ
nozomu nara sou surya ii kedo sa
でもそれって本当に僕なのかい
demo sore tte honto ni boku na no kai
子供騙しの夢ひとつ
kodomodamashi na yume hitotsu
こんな僕なら死ねばいいのに
konna boku nara shineba ii no ni
こんな僕が生きてるだけで
konna boku ga ikiteru dake de
何万人の人が悲しんで
nanmannin no hito ga kanashinde
誰も僕を望まない
daremo boku o nozomanai
そんな世界だったらいいのにな
sonna sekai dattara ii no ni na
こんな僕が消えちゃうだけで
konna boku ga kiechau dake de
何億人の人が喜んで
nan'okunin no hito ga yorokonde
誰も何も憎まないなら
daremo nani mo nikumanai nara
そんな嬉しいことはないな
sonna ureshii koto wa nai na
明日も僕は夢現
ashita mo boku wa yume utsutsu
このまま僕は消えていいのに
kono mama boku wa kiete ii noni
こんな僕が生きたところで
konna boku ga ikita tokorode
何億人の人は知らないし
nan'okunin no hito wa shiranai shi
誰も僕を望まない
dare mo boku o nozomanai
そんな世界だったらいいのかな
sonna sekai dattara ii no kana
こんな僕が消えたところで
konna boku ga kieta tokorode
何億人の人は変わらない
nan'okunin no hito wa kawaranai
誰も僕を憎まないなら
dare mo boku o nikumanai nara
損したことに変わりないな
sonshita koto ni kawari nai na
最後なんかみんな同じように倒れてゆきます
saigo nanka minna onaji you ni taorete yukimasu
迷途中の自分自身崩れてゆきます
meido in tannin no jibun jishin kuzurete yukimasu
最後なんかみんな同じように離れてくのに
saigo nanka minna onaji you ni hanareteku no ni
こんな僕が生きてるだけで
konna boku ga ikiteru dake de
なんで君はそんなに笑うの
nande kimi wa sonna ni warau no
君がそんな笑顔じゃ
kimi ga sonna egao ja
悲しくても消えたくても
kanashikute mo kietakute mo
さよならする理由なんてもう
sayonara suru riyuu nante mou
なければいいのに
nakereba ii noni
こんな僕が消えたところで
konna boku ga kieta tokorode
何億人の人は変わらない
nan'okunin no hito wa kawaranai
だけど僕を止める何かが
dakedo boku o tomeru nanika ga
そんな顔しちゃ笑えないや
sonna kao shicha waraenai ya
Self-Harm Colorless
I want to be someone like you
I want to be someone like me
If that's what you wish, then it's fine
But is that really me?
Just one childish dream
If it's me, I should just die
Just by me living like this
Tens of thousands of people are sad
No one wishes for me
It would be nice if it were that kind of world
Just by me disappearing
Hundreds of millions of people are happy
If no one hates anything
There's nothing happier than that
Tomorrow, I'll be a dream again
I should just disappear like this
Even if I live like this
Hundreds of millions of people don't know
No one wishes for me
Is that the kind of world it is?
Even if I disappear like this
Hundreds of millions of people won't change
If no one hates me
It wouldn't be a loss
In the end, everyone falls down the same way
I'll crumble as I lose myself on the wrong path
In the end, everyone drifts apart the same way
Just by me living like this
Why do you smile so much?
With that smile of yours
Even if I'm sad, even if I want to disappear
It would be better if there was no reason to say goodbye
Even if I disappear like this
Hundreds of millions of people won't change
But something that stops me
I can't smile at that face