我慢するのに疲れた日も (gaman suru no ni tsukareta himo)
もう、やだ
mou, yada
もういやだ, いやだ, いやだ
mou iya da, iya da, iya da
笑ってんじゃない 泣いてんだよ
waratten ja nai naiten da yo
飲み込みすぎて 苦しくて
nomikomi sugite kurushikute
吐き出す場所も 見つからなくて
hakidasu basho mo mitsukaranakute
夜に溶けた声は
yoru ni toketa koe wa
壁に跳ね返って 落ちてく
kabe ni hanekaette ochiteku
息が浅くなるたび
iki ga asaku naru tabi
胸が潰れそうで
mune ga tsuburesou de
ポケットの中で 爪を立てた
poketto no naka de tsume wo tateta
誰も気づかないまま
dare mo kidzukanai mama
平気なふりは 鎧みたいで
heiki na furi wa yoroi mitai de
重くて 重くて もう立てない
omokute omokute mou tatenai
「助けて」なんて言えなかった
tasukete" nante ienakatta
だから 叫ぶから 聴いてよ
dakara sakebu kara kiite yo
声が枯れても 聴いてよ
koe ga karetemo kiite yo
もうムリ もうムリ もうムリって
mou muri mou muri mou muri tte
千回くらい 心で叫んだ
sen kai kurai kokoro de sakenda
でもあなたが「ここにいる」って
demo anata ga \"koko ni iru\" tte
それだけで 息ができた
sore dake de iki ga dekita
あの日も 今日も 明日も
ano hi mo kyou mo ashita mo
笑顔の下で 震えてた
egao no shita de furueteta
自分でも 知らない声
jibun demo shiranai koe
そっと触れた手が
sotto fureta te ga
全部 ほどいていったんだ
zenbu hodoite ittan da
冷たい指先も
tsumetai yubisaki mo
あたたかくなるまで
atatakaku naru made
名前を呼ぶたび
namae wo yobu tabi
胸の痛みが溶けていく
mune no itami ga tokete iku
暗闇の中で 探してた
kurayami no naka de sagashiteta
出口も 灯りも 見えなかった
deguchi mo akari mo mienakatta
でも あなたの声がした
demo anata no koe ga shita
だから 歩けたんだ 歩けたんだ
dakara aruketan da aruketan da
ねぇ
nee
まだ生きてていいんでしょ?
mada ikitete ii n desho?
まだここにいていいんでしょ?
mada koko ni ite ii n desho?
離さないって 言ってよ
hanasanai tte itte yo
あなたの声が 私を呼び戻す
anata no koe ga watashi wo yobimodosu
何度だって 呼び戻す
nando datte yobimodosu
もうムリ もうムリって
mou muri mou muri tte
言える場所があるって 強い
ieru basho ga aru tte tsuyoi
泣き笑いの顔で
nakiwarai no kao de
あなたの名前を 何度も呼ぶ
anata no namae wo nando mo yobu
何度も 何度も 何度も
nando mo nando mo nando mo
我慢するのに疲れた日も
gaman suru no ni tsukareta hi mo
あなたがいるから
anata ga iru kara
あなたがいるから
anata ga iru kara
あなたが, いるから
anata ga, iru kara
いるんだ
iru nda
I'm Tired of Holding It In
I can't take it anymore
I just can't, can't, can't
I'm not laughing, I'm crying
I've swallowed too much, it's suffocating
Can't find a place to let it out
My voice melted into the night
Bouncing off the walls, falling down
Every time my breath gets shallow
It feels like my chest is gonna crush
I dug my nails into my pocket
While no one even noticed
Pretending to be okay feels like armor
It's heavy, so heavy, I can't stand anymore
I couldn't say 'help me'
So I'm screaming, please listen
Even if my voice goes hoarse, please listen
I can't do this, I can't do this, I can't do this
I've shouted it a thousand times in my heart
But when you said 'I'm here'
Just that made it possible to breathe
That day, today, tomorrow
I was shaking under my smile
A voice I didn't even know I had
The gentle touch of your hand
Untangled everything
Even my cold fingertips
Warmed up until
Every time you call my name
The pain in my chest melts away
I was searching in the darkness
Couldn't see the exit or the light
But then I heard your voice
That's why I could walk, I could walk
Hey
It's okay for me to still be alive, right?
It's okay for me to still be here, right?
Say you won't let go
Your voice calls me back
Calls me back no matter how many times
I can't do this, I can't do this
It's strong to have a place to say it
With a face of crying and laughing
I call your name over and over
Again and again and again
On days I'm tired of holding it in
It's because you're here
It's because you're here
Because you are here
You are here.