19
Doslyedniy raz doma ya bil davno
Ved' yego snesli zachyem-to i kto-to
Moya zhizn' nye ikh zabota, ya pomyenyal svoi plani
No zhit' tyepyer' mnye nikuda idti
Ya tochno znayu chto ya nye dozhivu do dvadtsati
Siniye volni opyat' zovut myenya v morye
Oni nye chuvstvuyut gorya, lyubvi i vechnikh utrat
Ya khotyel bit' takim zhye kak vsye, no mama prosti
Tyepyer' ya tochno uvyeryen chto ya nye dozhvu do dvadtsati
Glupiye volni oni nye chuvstvuyut etogo
Chto myenya vechno gubit i kogda-to ub'yet
Myenya nikto nikogda nye budyet zhdat' s raboti k pyati
Vyed' ya tochno znayu, chto ya nye dozhivu do dvadtzati
Doslyedniy raz doma ya bil davno
Ved' myenya slomali kto-to i gdye-to
Zabrali syerdtsye i detstvo
Ya nikogda nye uvizhu tu zhizn' kotoruyu zhdut ot myenya
Tak nyenavizhu vsye popitki myenya pomyenyat'
Sonniye litsa s utra toropyatsya sdokhnut'
I mnye nuzhni tvoi misli, im uzhye nye pomoch'
I ti pitayesh'cya snova dat' ochyen' del'niy sovyet mnye,
No ya bi tvoyemu rtu pryedlozhil luchshye skotch
Siniye volni opyat' zovut myenya v morye
Oni nye chuvstvuyut gorya, lyubvi i vechnikh utrat
Ya khotyel bit' takim zhye kak vsye, no mama prosti
Tyepyer' ya tochno uvyeryen chto ya nye dozhvu do dvadtsati
Glupiye volni oni nye chuvstvuyut etogo
Chto myenya vechno gubit i kogda-to ub'yet
Myenya nikto nikogda nye budyet zhdat' s raboti k pyati
Vyed' ya tochno znayu, chto ya nye dozhivu do dvadtzati
Poslyedniy raz doma ya bil kogda yeshchye chuvstvoval chto to
Mog ponimat' svoi misli i tsyenit' zhizn'
Nu a tyepyer' nadoyelo. Ya luchshye znayu chto dyelat'
Vashi sovyeti lish' dyelo, tak chto dyerzhis'
Ti budyesh' plakat' i zlit'sya, napivat'sya s druz'yami
Poka mashinana ulitsye vdrug tyebya nye sob'yet
Ti tak boish'sya ischeznut', no tak nye khochyesh' stat' imi
Ya uzhye nye nadyeyus', chto myenya kto to poymyet
Siniye volni opyat' zovut myenya v morye
Oni nye chuvstvuyut gorya, lyubvi i vechnikh utrat
Ya khotyel bit' takim zhye kak vsye, no mama prosti
Tyepyer' ya tochno uvyeryen chto ya nye dozhvu do dvadtsati
Glupiye volni oni nye chuvstvuyut etogo
Chto myenya vechno gubit i kogda-to ub'yet
Myenya nikto nikogda nye budyet zhdat' s raboti k pyati
Vyed' ya tochno znayu, chto ya nye dozhivu do dvadtzati
Gryazniye volni, oni nye slushayut serdtsye
Oni nye plachut nochami, oni nye veryat v lyubov'
Ya nye khochu bit' takim zhye, mnye budyet lyegchye uyti
Tyepyer' ya tochno uvyeryen, chto ya nye dozhivu do dvadtsati
19
Last time I was home was long ago
They demolished it for some reason and someone
My life is not their concern, I changed my plans
But now I have nowhere to go
I know for sure I won't live to twenty
Blue waves call me back to the sea
They don't feel sorrow, love, or eternal losses
I wanted to live like everyone else, but forgive me, mom
Now I'm sure I won't make it to twenty
Stupid waves, they don't feel
That I'm forever losing and will be killed someday
No one will ever wait for me to finish work at five
Because I know for sure I won't live to twenty
Last time I was home was long ago
They broke me somewhere and took
My heart and childhood
I will never see that life that awaits me
I hate all attempts to change me
Sleepy faces rush to suffocate in the morning
And I need your thoughts, they no longer help
And you try again to give me very useful advice
But I would offer the best scotch to your mouth
Blue waves call me back to the sea
They don't feel sorrow, love, or eternal losses
I wanted to live like everyone else, but forgive me, mom
Now I'm sure I won't make it to twenty
Stupid waves, they don't feel
That I'm forever losing and will be killed someday
No one will ever wait for me to finish work at five
Because I know for sure I won't live to twenty
Last time I was home was when I still felt something
Could understand my thoughts and appreciate life
But now it's enough. I know best what to do
Your advice is just a matter, so hold on
You'll cry and get angry, get drunk with friends
While the car on the street suddenly won't start
You're so afraid of disappearing, but don't want to be missed
I no longer hope someone will understand me
Blue waves call me back to the sea
They don't feel sorrow, love, or eternal losses
I wanted to live like everyone else, but forgive me, mom
Now I'm sure I won't make it to twenty
Stupid waves, they don't feel
That I'm forever losing and will be killed someday
No one will ever wait for me to finish work at five
Because I know for sure I won't live to twenty
Dirty waves, they don't listen to the heart
They don't cry at night, they don't believe in love
I don't want to live like this, it will be easier to leave
Now I'm sure I won't make it to twenty