Divorce

Sometimes I wonder what you'll think
If I go down that road
And everything that it means
Will the words I say to you mean anything?
I tried desperately to hold to love
But finally understood I couldn't stop its sink
I know it kills you
But it was rotting me Alive
On one side I knew the cost for you
And the other was mine
I can see in your eyes every time
Just how perfect everything could be

If I could only see
With that same innocence
But mine has been ripped apart
And torn to shreds
There is not an apology or a tear I could shed
To make you believe I didn't work at it
I can feel you shake
Wishing I could hold you again
When you feel like you are drowning
Sometimes you just can't keep holding your breath
There was poison in our home
I drank it every day

I know you can't see that but hopefully someday
Someday you come to know
I wasn't letting you go
I was trying to hold to my heart
And only in separation
Was I going to not come apart
I am not letting you go
I am trying to hold to my heart
And only in separation
Am I not going to come apart