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It's Hard for Me to Understand

It's hard for me to understand, I will suffer, it hurts to know
Not being able to see the sunrise of that woman, it's hard for me to understand
I will suffer, it hurts to know, not being able to see the sunrise of that woman
I was thirteen when the pain settled in my soul
My old man tells me your mom is suffering from cancer in those days
I felt what she felt, she was suffering, she was dying
Her condition worsened, the transfer was necessary
And I was in the province finishing my secondary year, days at school
My old man with a suitcase, get ready, we're going on a trip
Where it seems like you're hiding something from me, your mom needs us, that's what he tells me
On the bus, I asked where is the light of Jesus and why don't the bad ones carry the cross
We arrived while I imagined you awake, the gentle wind blows through an open window
I opened door after door without being alert, a nurse said the patient is dead
It's hard for me to understand, I will suffer, it hurts to know
Not being able to see the sunrise of that woman, it's hard for me to understand
I will suffer, it hurts to know, not being able to see the sunrise of that woman
I walk in command, pouring out my sadness, my tears are multiplying
I would give everything, mother, to see you walk again hand in hand and contemplate the sunrise
I would change each of these verses to be a child again and have you fill me with your kisses
I'm still in hell, you guide my steps, you woke up to hug me
The death of a mother takes away the color, but no tear that escapes avoids the pain
I've been sad since the day you left, I didn't give you a kiss on that journey you went on
I prayed on my knees at that grave, 10 years have passed and it crushes me
A part of my old life, they buried it with you, I don't have your kisses, caresses, your warmth
Now I get lost in these memories, 10 years ago I stopped being sane
I'm crazy with grief and sadness seeing that you don't come back from anywhere
My grieving heart finds no comfort, a hospital in mourning, that coffin, a handkerchief
I didn't give you a kiss, you didn't say goodbye, and the echo of your sweet voice faded and was lost
No one replaces her, I can't find another like her, and I keep wondering if the stars are far away
The family moves forward, Angélica, Jerson, the old man, my diamond
Thank you for everything, for bringing me here, I lived, I grew, now I am
I dedicate this to you, from me, because to the family, mom, I promised