Shiroki Yuutsu

White Melancholy

Shiroki Yuutsu

Beyond the drapes swaying in the wind
風に靡くドレープの向こう
kaze ni nabiku doreepu no mukou
It wasn't my body that trembled at the weak voice
薄弱な声に震えたのは身体じゃなく
ujaku na koe ni furue ta no wa karada ja naku
But the first time I became aware of "loss"
初めて意識した「失い」
hajimete ishiki shita \"ushinai\"

The anxiety that clings and won't let go
染み付いて離れぬ不安感
shimi tsuite hanarenu fuankan
I feel like I'm forgetting the warmth of your hand
拭う手の温もりを忘れそう
nuguu te no nukumori wo wasure sou
The white walls steal away my sense of security
白壁が連れ去る安心感
shirokabe ga tsuresaru anshinkan
How many times will April pass before it ends?
四月は何度見れば終わる
shigatsu wa nando mireba owaru

Just a little misalignment and it can all fall apart so easily
掛け違うだけでこんなに容易く崩れてゆける
kakechigau dake de konna ni yousuku kuzurete yukeru
Yeah, it's more fragile than saying it out loud
そう 口に出すよりも脆く
sou kuchi ni dasu yori mo moroku

Fluttering sadly, swaying back and forth
ひらりひらりと悲しげに揺れる
hirari hirari to kanashige ni yureru
The smile I return doesn't reflect it
返す笑みには映らない
kaesu emi ni wa utsuranai
Oh, where has my melancholy gone?
優鬱よ何処へ
yuuutsu yo doko e
The weakness I bite down on learned the meaning of transience
噛み締める弱さが知ったハカナさの意味
kamishimeru yowasa ga shitta hakana sa no imi
Now I hold you as if to protect you
今は君を守る様に抱く様に
ima wa kimi wo mamoru you ni daku you ni

Saying the answer is a lie, laughing that it's a bad dream
答えが嘘だと言って 悪い夢なのと笑って
kotae ga uso da to itte warui yume na no to waratte

I can barely breathe, just enduring it all
息も出来ずにただ堪えるだけ
iki mo dekizu ni tada taeru dake
Words pile up and cover everything
詰まる言葉を覆い尽くす
tsumaru kotoba wo ooi tsukusu
Oh, where has my melancholy gone?
優鬱よ何処へ
yuuutsu yo doko e
The tomorrow I clung to and wished for is still blooming
しがみつき願った明日は今も咲いてる
shigami tsuki negatta ashita wa ima mo saiteru
As if to protect you
君を守るかのように
kimi wo mamoru ka no you ni
Sway, sway, sway
ゆら ゆら ゆら
yura yura yura