Better Side of Me

I’m feeling empty, all alone
This feelings condescending to my soul
So sick of bitter endings
And letting go
Are there happy endings
That I’m supposed to know

There’s a hurt inside I’m feelin
And it needs to be released
I’m holding onto the thoughts I know
Tormenting me
I’ve gotta break this cycle
You live and you learn
If I’m making all the same mistakes
I’ll crash and burn

I gotta get outta the way I’m thinking
There’s a better side of me
I’m torn between addictions
And the truths that I believe

Filled with toxic memories
They’ve been burned into my mind
Effecting all my choices made
For the rest of my life
Feels like my eyes are bleeding
Can’t believe the things I’ve seen
Bad thoughts turn to accusations
That end up make believe

I gotta get outta the way I’m thinking
There’s a better side of me
I’m torn between addictions
And the truths that I believe

Struggling while sleeping
I toss and turn
I hear outside it’s raining
It calms my nerves
It calms my nerves
It calms my nerves

I know that I will always be deceived
I’m drowning in a sea of my anxiety

I can’t get outta the way I’m thinking
There’s no better side of me
There’s nothing to believe in
There’s nothing
There’s nothing here for me