Not Even Close

you like to think that you know me
but perhaps don't even like me
i'm sure it's not unexpected
that any love will be rejected
i'm not eccentric in anyway
just watching my vulnerability
i'm just fed up with fake friends
I think i'll keep my thoughts to myself

you think that you are close to me
but i can see through you all

i used to think that everyone was nice
now i realise it's for a price
too many people love themselves
so much that they can't love anyone else
used to say things secretly
now say a word and it's used against me
fed up with bitching backstabbers
i now know who my real friends are

you think that you are close to me
but i can see through you all

so easy to say paranoid
a subject that you like to avoid
don't really know a thing about me
won't get to know me personally
just believe what you are told
isn't it just easier that way?
take advantage of my good nature
confide, then turn around and hurt you

you think that you are close to me
but i can see through you all