Surely

Surely you know what I've been dying to say
God knows it's hard
When you're not here i can pour out my heart
The words just come
But timing isn't my best point
I miss the boat
Too scared to spit it out
I keep the lump in my throat
For crying out loud
What's the worst that can happen
Maybe I'll die
Maybe my life will begin
But sometimes even the best lines are misconstrued
At times I'm eloquent
Though not in front of you
I could keep it so quiet
Never tell you my secret
Living a lie
I yell inside
Timing isn't my best point
I miss the boat
Too scared to spit it out
Kept the lump in my throat
For crying out loud
What's the worst that can happen
Maybe i'll die
Maybe my life starts here
Surely you know what I've been dying to say