What Am I Doing It For?

I've been working on myself, but it got confusin'
Trying to find more time, instead that's what I'm consumin'
I've got pain in my stomach from all the lies that I've told
'Least I ain't like my sister, it's not the drugs I'm abusin', I'm
Swallowing pride, yeah, I'm turning the lights out
Tryna look cute so I'm not scared of what's outside
Extroverted introvert but no one would know, 'cause I've got so good at putting on a good show

I won't waste my, don't know why
What am I doing it for?
Tell me, what am I doing it for?

Is it my dad I'm tryna impress so I get some attention?
Is it my mum's advice I'm taking so she don't regret her invention?
Is it society I'm fighting 'cause deep down I feel small?
Or am I in my head in case they can't tell us apart?
I'm walking, I'm walking, I'm walking away
Running ain't really my style anyway
Don't know if I'm really wanting the fame
Something tells me I'm a bit smarter than that, I'm holding it back
If I don't, I'll be walking in blind

I won't waste my, don't know why
What am I doing it for?
Tell me, what am I doing it for?