Villians

What should I make of this?
I'm trapped inside a terminal
Forced to choose between two burdens
Both of which I can't live with or without

I could tell someone, and live with truth
Or tell myself, and live without regret

Failure is haunting us, but only if we believe it can
Fortune is grabbing us by the throat, though we must allow it

Reasons beyond our control have taken everything from us

Just as it seems to fade, it returns
Stronger than it was before
I'm left to deal with this ambush alone
An army of one is no army at all

Broken are my attempts, by both my own
To signal peace will never be the case

I'll put in what I plan on getting out
I put my life into this

Will I feel again?