Between Doors

I've been standing in the doorway
With my shoes still on the floor
Everyone looks like they know
Exactly what they're here for
I smile when they ask my name
Say I'm fine, I play my part
But it feels like I'm visiting
A place that's not my heart

I tried to fit into the picture
Tried to learn the lines
But every room I walk into
Feels like borrowed time

I don't belong to this city
Or the stories that they tell
I'm always just passing through
Never staying long enough
I'm between doors, between names
Between I'm okay and I'm not
I'm looking for a place to land
But I don't know where I'm from

I wear colors that don't match
The walls I'm standing near
Laugh at jokes a second late
Like I wasn't really here
They say make yourself at home
But I don't know what that means
How do you settle down somewhere
When you're split between your dreams?

I pack my heart in small boxes
Carry it around
Everywhere feels temporary
Like I'm not meant to be found

I don't belong to this city
Or the stories that they tell
I'm always just passing through
Never staying long enough
I'm between doors, between names
Between I'm okay and I'm not
I'm looking for a place to land
But I don't know where I'm from

Maybe I'm not lost forever
Maybe I'm just on my way
Maybe home is something quiet
That I'll learn to feel someday

I don't belong to the silence
Or the noise they call a life
But I'm learning that it's okay
To not fit in every line
If I'm between doors, between names
Maybe that's where I start
If I don't belong anywhere
Maybe I belong to my heart