forever

Sometimes, I think about how I will be like this forever
And cry, because I feel like you deserve better
The damage that I cause 'cause of my damage
And I can't wrap my mind around how you manage
To love me when we're at a disadvantage, and it's all my fault
I go outside just to fake a smile
I've been running for hours, and haven't hit a mile
You've been patient with me while I try and reconcile
With the voices in my head