Goodbye

I try to fit this mold around me
I try to make sense of all this
I try not to question, I try not to care
But the more I avoid it the more it hits the door

I spent my whole life trying to live normally
I'm afraid, I feel alone, and I feel weak
I push myself too hard pretending to find exits
Find answers to what will never be

If being alive means being in pain I want this to end
The years pass and I feel no change I feel no difference
I want this to end because I'm tired and I can not stand

Can anyone save me?
Does anyone hear me?