Self Punishment

Weight of guilt got me down
Try to escape but don't know how
It takes up all space now
And I'm about to drown

You don't understand
I live with my mistakes, constant regret
I can't forgive myself
I live it all over again

The fear in your eyes, the sadness in your eyes
You will never forget it
The pain in see you suffocating all it in your chest
Sure one day you won't be able enough to care

Enough to keep, enough to stay

And I know apologies don't mean anything
Why keep hurting you?
Why always make the same mistakes?

And why complain if I deserve so much worse