Stay Up

Here we go again
I buried myself too deep within
The clock moves faster (it's always after)
That I can find some common ground
With my severed ties

But here I am, a broken shell
Of everything I said I wasn't
But turned into in the end

A selfish friend, too busy
Taking time for only me, a thoughtless trap
That's locked inside my head

I should've known, that I'm breaking my back
Just to carry this weight alone
Cut to the bone, too busy losing my mind
Over thoughts of never finding home

Stay up, stay up
Pretend like I never meant to fall this low
Wait up, wait up
Descend like we're living in an afterglow

Take a look around at what's inside
Before I tear it down in oversight
I'll pace around my head these thoughts confined
To a bitter place I can't describe

But now I can't just go and ignore myself
Like I always used to do before
Because I've got to stop and take my time
To let space breath and blossom growth