I'm Trying

I keep myself busy
I've learned how to fake a smile
It's pretty convincing
But you can see through it
Once in a while

I thought I was invincible
But everything came
Crashing to the ground
So I hid amongst the wreckage
And hoped the world would
Never find me out

I'm trying to get back
To the person I was
But it's harder than
I'm willing to admit
I'm trying to get back
To the things I once loved
But remind me what that
Even was again

People ask how I'm doing
I tell them that all I'm alright
Say something enough and
You can start to believe your lie

But when I let my guard down
Reality comes strolling through the door
A little voice reminds me
That I was so much happier before

I'm trying to get back
To the person I was
But it's harder than
I'm willing to admit
I'm trying to get back
To the things I once loved
But remind me what that
Even was again

And I wish everybody would stop
Claiming that they know
How much it hurts
They think it's what they're supposed to say
But honestly it
Only makes it worse

I'm trying to get back
To the person I was
But it's harder than
I'm willing to admit
I'm trying to get back
To the things I once loved
But remind me what that
Even was again

I'm trying to remember all the
Dreams I used to have
But I've been stuck inside
A nightmare I can't shake
I'm trying to look forward
But the past is right behind me
And it closes in a little more each day
But I'm trying
You don't see it but I'm trying
I'm trying