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I Wasn't Ready

(Luz negra)(Blacklight)
Pensé que tú eras el peligroI thought you were the danger
No sabíaI didn't know
Que yo era la tormentaI was the storm

Entraste en mi oscuridadYou walked into my darkness
Como si no tuvieras miedoLike you weren't afraid
No me pediste ser perfectoDidn't ask me to be perfect
No me hiciste explicarDidn't make me explain

Tocaste las partes que odiabaYou touched the parts I hated
Como si no estuvieran rotasLike they weren't broken at all
Y por primera vez en mucho tiempoAnd for the first time in forever
No me sentí tan pequeñoI didn't feel so small

Recordaste cosas pequeñasYou remembered little things
Que olvidé que alguna vez dijeI forgot I ever said
Las canciones que me hacían sonreírThe songs that made me smile
Los pensamientos en mi cabezaThe thoughts inside my head

Me miraste como si fuera alguienYou looked at me like I was someone
Por quien valía la pena quedarseWorth staying for
Y me encantó cómo se sentíaAnd I loved the way it felt
Pero no sabíaBut I didn't know
Para qué era el amorWhat love was for

Lo llamé libertadI called it freedom
Cuando necesitaba espacioWhen I needed space
Lo llamé nadaI called it nothing
Cuando me diste todoWhen you gave me everything
Estabas construyendo algoYou were building something
Yo estaba persiguiendo un sentimientoI was chasing a feeling

Estabas debajo de mi pielYou were underneath my skin
Pero yo solo estaba en la superficieBut I was only on the surface
Estabas cayendo en míYou were falling into me
Mientras yo caía en momentosWhile I was falling into moments
Me diste tu corazónYou gave me your heart
Te di mis nochesI gave you my nights
Me diste la eternidadYou gave me forever
Te di un adiósI gave you a goodbye
Y la verdad más duraAnd the hardest truth
Que tuve que enfrentarI had to face
No eras tú quien cambiabaYou weren't the one who changed
Era yo quienI was the one
No estaba listoWho wasn't ready

(No estaba listo)(I wasn't ready)
(No, no)(No, no)
(No estaba listo)(I wasn't ready)

Esperaste cuando desaparecíYou waited when I disappeared
Te quedaste cuando me alejéYou stayed when I pulled away
Viste un futuro en mis ojosYou saw a future in my eyes
Yo tenía demasiado miedo de nombrarloI was too afraid to name

Me gustaba cómo me deseabasI liked the way you wanted me
Me gustaba cómo te importabaI liked the way you cared
Pero no entendía la diferenciaBut I didn't understand the difference
Entre ser amadoBetween being loved

Y tener miedoAnd being scared
Perseguí cada distracciónI chased every distraction
Cada subidón temporalEvery temporary high
Mientras tú intentabas sostenermeWhile you were trying to hold me

A través de cada versión de mi vidaThrough every version of my life
Buscabas un hogarYou were looking for a home
Yo buscaba una nocheI was looking for a night
Y odio no haber sabidoAnd I hate that I didn't know
La diferencia en ese momentoThe difference at the time

Nunca pediste perfecciónYou never asked for perfection
Solo me pediste ser realYou only asked me to be real
Pero estaba demasiado ocupado corriendoBut I was too busy running
De algo que podía sentirFrom something I could feel

Estabas debajo de mi pielYou were underneath my skin
Pero yo solo estaba en la superficieBut I was only on the surface
Me estabas dando tu almaYou were giving me your soul
Yo te daba un momentoI was giving you a moment
Me diste tu confianzaYou gave me your trust
Te di señales confusasI gave you mixed signals
Viste algo eternoYou saw something forever
Yo vi algo simpleI saw something simple
Y la verdad más duraAnd the hardest truth
Que tuve que enfrentarI had to face
No pedías demasiadoYou weren't asking for too much
Solo estaba demasiado lejosI was just too far away

Quizás algún díaMaybe someday
Amarás a alguienYou'll love somebody
Que sepa qué hacerWho knows what to do
Con un corazón como el tuyoWith a heart like yours
Quizás algún díaMaybe someday
Me perdonaréI'll forgive myself
Por perder algoFor losing something
Que no era lo suficientemente maduroI wasn't mature enough
Para sostenerTo hold
Porque algunas personasBecause some people
No rompen tu corazónDon't break your heart
RevelanThey reveal
Cuán descuidadoHow careless
Eras con élYou were with it

Estabas debajo de mi piel (mi piel)You were underneath my skin (my skin)
Incluso cuando fingía que no estabasEven when I pretended you weren't
Me amabas completamenteYou were loving me completely
Mientras yo aprendía lo que significaba amarWhile I was learning what love meant
Quería tu fuegoI wanted your fire
Pero temía tu luz (tu bebé)But I feared your light (your baby)
Quería tu cuerpoI wanted your body
Pero no tu vidaBut not your life
Y ahora entiendoAnd now I understand
Lo que no podía ver entoncesWhat I couldn't see then
Estabas listo para amarYou were ready for love
Yo estaba listo para la nocheI was ready for the night

La peor parte no es perderteThe worst part isn't losing you
Es saberIt's knowing
Que nunca fuiste el problemaYou were never the problem
Solo estaba convirtiéndomeI was just becoming
En la personaThe person
Que finalmente entendióWho finally understood
Lo que teníaWhat I had