Nightmare

I'm too emotional
I have to let you go
I haven't cleaned my room
Since last time you came home
And every day that passes by
Makes it so much harder to enjoy my life
Though it's part of growing older
I'm sleeping with the lights off
It's better if I'm blind
So I can get you off my mind 'cause

Every time I see you smile
I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well
I wonder who you're with
I pretend I don't care
I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare
Nightmare
But every time I see those eyes
I wonder if you know
You're keeping me up late at night
I don't know where to go
I pretend I don't care
I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare
Nightmare

I'm too impulsive
I didn't mean to call again
I wasn't thinking straight
Last night at 3 am
I've been having trouble tryna fall sleep
Melatonin by my side, but my will is weak
Keeping notions that I'm fine up so I don't need
Medicated remedies
Fuck benzodiazepines

Every time I see you smile
I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well
I wonder who you're with
I pretend I don't care
I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare
Nightmare
But every time I see those eyes
I wonder if you know
You're keeping me up late at night
I don't know where to go
I pretend I don't care
I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare
Nightmare

Why do I try?
I don't know why
I want to fall in love
I want to die
Every time
I see you popping up
Forget all the fights
Remember the nights
We had. It's not enough
I want to lie
Pretend I'm alright
But

Every time I see you smile
I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well
I wonder who you're with
I pretend I don't care
I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare
Nightmare
But every time I see those eyes
I wonder if you know
You're keeping me up late at night
I don't know where to go
I pretend I don't care
I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare
Nightmare

Every time I see you smile
I die a little bit
Heard that you've been doing well
I wonder who you're with
I pretend I don't care
I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare
Nightmare
But every time I see those eyes
I wonder if you know
You're keeping me up late at night
I don't know where to go
I pretend I don't care
I tell myself you're right here
It's nothing but a nightmare
Nightmare