Help Is Not On The Way

I'm trapped somewhere
Between the need to feed the machine
And the pillar holding fillers inside everything
I've sold my soul so make no mistake
Just because I'm not dreaming
Doesn't mean I'm awake
And I've tried my best
Not to fear the consequence
But I'm beside myself
I refuse to ask for help

Never mind, I'm not drowning, but I was
My ship, it's not sinking, but it did
My reason, to go on, crumbling
I swear I am fine, I'm just fucking fine
Never mind, I'm not drowning, but I was
My ship, it's not sinking, but it did
My reason, to go on, crumbling
I swear I am fine, just fucking fine

Configuration intangible
Convulsionary in principle
Inexplicable through their lies
Yet it's undeniable in their eyes
And I've tried my best
Not to fear the consequence
But I'm beside myself
I refuse to ask for help