Eternal

Alienating, i will never be free.
I've been locking myself inside.
all this time, searching for something that's right outside my door. but when i hear your name i just wish it all away.
I'm not looking but i still see,
I'm not listening but i still hear.
i feel even though you're not here. forever i fear you, fear me.
i don't want to live forever.
everyday i see your face, lying awake.
i can feel your embrace crush me.
i can't trust me, trust you.
see me point my hatred at you.
every time i hear your name, when i hear your name i just wish it all away.