heart attack

I thought of letting her out
She's a big brave girl now, I can't relate
I feel like a horse or a shark, I could sleep standing up
In the daytime I'm falling awake
I picture a cat who looks like Juno on the fence
It gives me a heart attack, I can't lose another friend

I'm measuring up against the wall again
It's always the same but maybe this time
I've changed

Crosswalk, go now, green light, forever counting down
Check first, left right, blackout, must've run out of time
I thought of letting it go
Create a record-breaking ball of snow
Too big to catch it but I could if I had just reached out like half a year ago

Everybody's screaming, waving, fainting in the pit
Just give me a heart attack, I'm fucking losing it
I'm measuring up against the wall again
It's always the same but maybe this time
I've changed

I'm measuring up against the wall again
It's always the same but maybe this time
I've changed

Gasping for air like there's a lack of oxygen
You'll have to drag me back, I can't do this again