Filth

Everything was green when August came about
Fall was around the corner
And my year had just turned sour
I was trapped inside a little empty room
And Christmas time decidedly came soon

Oh, I was trying too
Let it all just fade away
Oh, I tried too
You’re not the only one who’s having a bad day

Tried filling out the spaces
Tried fitting in with my friends
I'll bury my emotion in this social interaction
I still feel alone and I'm still stuck inside
I might as well have bought a car and hope that
It would learn to drive

Cause I'm not moving on
I'm just hanging out inside of my own filth
And I'm not proving myself to anyone
I'm tired of carrying around this guilt

I'm stuck again
But blameless for all of my problems
Nothing can fix me
I’ve tried every way I can
I'm stuck again
But blameless for all of my problems
Nothing can fix me
I’ve tried every way I can

And as the seasons change, my heart should as well
But there’s not much left that would impactfully compel
Me to restart or get up off my ass
Figure out some sort of solution instead of letting these moments pass

But I'm so tired
I just want to go home again
And I'm so done with
Dealing with myself and all the issues that comes with

I'm stuck again
But blameless for all of my problems
Nothing can fix me
I’ve tried every way I can

I'm stuck again
But blameless for all of my problems
Nothing can fix me
I’ve tried every way I can