5AM

Its 5 AM and I haven't slept in 24 hours
I've been thinking how all of my days are nights and nights are days oh I can't tell
The bottles up but it doesn't seem to sink me half-empty
I've been dreading 'bout all of my failure
Frights and open doors will I find rest

What if I end up beating a part of me
The part that I meant to keep at security
In my defense I'm used to carrying myself
And maybe I'm scared I'll lose what's in front of me
Lie to my parents say I've got everything
Handled but clearly I've been lying to myself

It's 5 AM and I haven't spoke to anyone 'bout this
But the words are at the edge of this curb and taking up a little too much space
It's crowded out but nobody wants to talk it over
Don't wanna step on any more of these toes and reasons why they couldn't care for less

What if I end up beating a part of me
The part that I meant to keep at security
In my defense I'm used to carrying myself
Maybe I'm scared I'll lose what's in front of me
Lie to my parents say I've got everything
Handled but clearly I've been lying to myself

Maybe I'm scared I'll lose what's in front of me
Lie to my parents say I've got everything
Handled but clearly I've been lying to myself