Habit

Habits stay around
Not like I wanna be this way
Feelings laid to rest
Every night I find a way

To dream
Of what should've been
Everything was dusted gold

Then the wind
Blew it all away
Now there's nothing left but bones

Tell me who I am
Every breath feels so incomplete
Blessings in my head
Writing fiction

Set me free to feel
What I should've felt
Comfort ins't made for growth

I'm too scared
To see what I am
When I have to fight my own

Habits stay around
Not like I wanna be this way
Feelings laid to rest
Every night I find a way

To dream
Of what should've been
Now there's nothing left but bones

Tell me how
Can I find myself
When he stripped me down this raw

I can't seem to love myself
He must've thrown away my heart