My Own Grave

I wish you were in my mind to see the things I can't say
But I am so hated would it matter anyway?

Standing here
Just remembering
Picturing a life between you and me

I know I'm not the one you want
And all those dark days now are gone
But you remains into my mind
It will until the day I die
Sometimes I wish I could forget
I could finally lie down and rest
I'm sick of spend hours awake
It feels like digging my own grave

I wish I had somewhere to stay when the rain comes at night
Loneliness embraces me while downtown shines so bright

Standing here
Just remembering
Picturing a life between you and me

I know I'm not the one you want
And all those dark days now are gone
But you remains into my mind
It will until the day I die
Sometimes I wish I could forget
I could finally lie down and rest
I'm sick of spend hours awake
It feels like digging my own grave

When you said: You are mine
Everything was a lie?