Arbitration

There’s a clawing at my feet.
I’m hoping I’m not dragged into defeat.
I’m praying you don’t see.
The only thing worse is you thinking less of me.

I’m constantly my own worst enemy.
And wreaking havoc with proficiency.
Who am I? (enemy)
I fail to understand the lessons learned.
Cutting corners when your back is turned.
Who am I? (enemy)

And I don’t doubt you
And I don’t need your approval

I had never realised
My greatest enemy is my disguise
Ashamed of my history
Every time you look at me
I cannot help but hope you cannot see
Draw out the evil within me

Shameful it may seem
But I cannot run the risk of acting honestly
And I tried to fight it
This is not a democracy

I’m constantly my own worst enemy
And wreaking havoc with proficiency
Who am I? (enemy)
I fail to understand the lessons learned
Cutting corners when your back is turned
Who am I? (enemy)

Tell me what to say
Manipulate me in every way

I had never realised
My greatest enemy is my disguise
Ashamed of my history
Every time you look at me
I cannot help but hope you cannot see
Draw out the evil within me