Freakout

Sometimes I think I'll freak out. I'm apathetic. I act pathetic. I think I cracked this time. Sometimes I think I'm schizophrenic, frantically feeling for a foothold, but I put it off. Falling faster, I'm looking for an answer. I'm coming up with nothing. You'll never get me down from this ledge. I feel I'm losing everything. Losing my mind. Losing my pants. Unplug me; you can send up anyone you want. I'm Phil's last stand. I see what's in front of me. It's just not what I want. I'm just gonna give up 40 more years of the same, and life would be so boring again. That's all I can see. I don't wanna feel that stupid again. What's wrong with me. I'm freakin.