Moments I Regret

I find joy in the blur
Longing for the moments I regret
Hollow out my deepest wounds
I've never felt in control
Let it happen again and again

Anxieties never sleep
When I dream of the end of the world
This poison self-inflicted
We learn to live without
The joy in the blur

I deserve to be punished
For never wanting to be fixed
Give away my misery
So I don't have to live with it
I deserve to be punished
For never wanting to be fixed
Give away my misery
So I don't have to live with it

Devastation all around me
A thousand reasons to be angry
Echoes of disfigured ghosts
Voices you could diagnose
Unloved since birth
My father's curse
Unloved since birth
My father's curse

I deserve to be punished
For never wanting to be fixed
Give away my misery
So I don't have to live with it
I deserve to be punished
For never wanting to be fixed
Give away my misery
So I don't have to live with it

Cursed at birth with the mark of a bastard
I emerge the shepherd that butchers the black sheep
I disavow
Unloved I disavow
Cursed at birth with the mark of a bastard
Unloved I disavow