My Suicide

This may be the last song I ever sing
These may the last words I ever breath
Because tonight I'm letting go of everything I've ever been

I used to look at this mess and pretend
That I could live with what I had
But tonight I'm letting go and learning how to breath

For so long I've looked at the horizon
And set my feet to take it all for myself
But tonight I'm letting go of everything I wanted to be

I'm beginning to see a treasure
But it's so hard to see past my eyes
Tonight letting go of everything thing of everything I've ever seen

My flesh can't please me now
This is my suicide

I'm taking my first breath
And spitting out my last
There's a sweet and bitter taste of my idol haunted past

A new air fills my lungs,
And I'm learning how to breath all over again
Every breath burns but the pain is just the means to a better end

I feel like a child trying to grow into his skin
But I'll learn to ditch my bones, and ease myself into every limb

There's still an anchor in my heart,
That tries to pull me back underneath
But it's just an apparition that doesn't realize I'm already free

My flesh can't please me now
This is my suicide
My bones can't hold me down
Tonight I'm coming alive