I Don't Care If It's Spring (Live Improv Edit) (feat. Fernando Perdomo)

They said wait until spring
Cause in spring everything's got to change
For the better
But I've waited and waited
And summer is here
Nothing changed
Except the weather

I still feel much too empty to share it with you
I still don't want to talk
I don't know what to do
And the spring is a joke that they're playing on you
Are they not? Are they not?
Where I come from they know

That in spring you feel worse
That's the truth
Cause it builds up inside you
And calls you outside
To be young, to be free
Like you used to be
But you're stuck in your job

And you're stuck in a rut like before
But the heart calls you out
And it tells you to open that door
But you cannot be free
And you cannot be all that you wanted to be
So the bird's little song
Makes it feel so damn wrong

And you're dying inside
Just wait and see, wait and see
Maybe summer is where it all has to be
But I'm feeling so old
I'm not feeling as bold as I used to before
And I have closed the door to the dreams that I had
But they're knocking on this fucking door

Cause it's spring
I don't care anymore I don't care anymore If it's spring
I'm just trying my best not to go insane
So I cry, and I shout, and I drink, and I sing
So I cry, and I scream, and I drink, and I sing
And I smoked the other day
Like I used to smoke before

And you know, it felt great, it felt great It felt good, yes it did
Well, when I turned around
Guess who I saw staring at me
It was my own kid
And she knew something's wrong
Cause she never saw me do this thing before
As I threw it away I just walked through the door

And pretended like nothing had happened
If it's spring
Maybe it doesn't mean
Doesn't mean a damn thing