trapped in the thought of free

I'm so sick of thinking
Too many minutes fleeting
Don't want nothing to do with me
As far as I know I'm stuck in between
Time space dimensions beyond reach
So what's the point of negativity
Some days I want a break from myself
But today don't wanna fuck with no one else

I spent so long
Tryna free myself
Tryna find the hope they speak about
I spent so long
Tryna find myself
That I found myself
Trapped in the thought of free

I wish I believed in
All the things I'm reading
Follow like I'm wearing sheep's skin
But darling nobodies innocent
Question everything like it's a test
Sometimes I wish that my mind would rest
Let me bathe in ignorance
Close my eyes I just wanna breathe again

I spent so long
Tryna free myself
Tryna find the hope they speak about
I spent so long
Tryna find myself
That I found myself
Trapped in the thought of free

I look for places I can't go
I want to feel things I can't hold
I want to know things I don't know
Just let me let go now
I look for places I can't go
I want to feel things I can't hold
I want to know things I don't know
Just let me let go now

I spent so long
Tryna free myself
Tryna find the hope they speak about
I spent so long
Tryna find myself
That I found myself
Trapped in the thought of free