Habits (Temperance)

I care about what people think too much
You can't imagine all the things I've done
When I've been hurting
And don't feel worthy
If I could say I'm sorry one more time
You would lie and say that it's alright
We both know you hate it
But can I change it

One step forward two steps back
Would you even notice that
I'm trying to be better
Than before

I don't know what I'm fighting for
The warning signs I can't ignore
Tryna break the habit once again
I can feel the walls are closing in
Don't know what I'm fighting for
If my habits never change

I know that I'm my own worst enemy
But confrontation is so hard for me
I give in so easy
I even doubt me
Everything about me feels so wrong
I'm understanding that I don't belong
I want to
I promise
But I'm so self conscious

I don't know what I'm fighting for
The warning signs I can't ignore
Tryna break the habit once again
I can feel the walls are closing in
Don't know what I'm fighting for
If my habits never change

One step forward two steps back
Would you even notice that
I'm trying to be better
Than before

I don't know what I'm fighting for
The warning signs I can't ignore
Tryna break the habit once again
I can feel the walls are closing in
Don't know what I'm fighting for
If my habits never change
If my habits never change

I don't know what I'm fighting for
The warning signs I can't ignore