Faded Mirrors

Look into the mirror, I don’t see me anymore
All these scars upon my wrist, they tell the story I ignore
Pop another pill, let it burn my fucking core
I just wanna close my eyes and never feel this war

I'm just tryna fade away (fade away)
Drown my pain in Novocaine (novocaine)
My reflection’s lost its face
I don’t recognize my name

Smoke clouds fill the room, can’t escape this doom
Demons whisper softly: You’ll be leaving soon
God, if you can hear me, should I pull it now?
Or should I wait until the voices take my body down?

Mama said she loved me, but she left me in the dark
Now I'm riding fast with a pistol in my heart
If I vanish now, would they care at all?
Or would my face just fade like bloodstains on the wall?