Illusions

Illusions
As I lay in my bed - bed of death
I turn my head - sunbeam in my eyes
I wish awake - or that I had fled
And that I had not told them all lies

As I turn my head in bed
I face the black side of my soul
The sun vanish through the darkening still
I wish awake - or that I had not led me kill - ME

Keep it in the closet - hide it underneath the bed
I regret (that I was not able to bleed)
My soul had not bled

Looking through the misty clouds towards the heavens
I had hoped that I would have gotten a glimpse of me
Instead a raven roars through my sight

It has come to tell me
"You will never be to see another day!"
No more will I in life swell
Forever (eternity) in darkness dwell
- if I ever was?

I could have been - should have seen
My destiny rushing pass me
But I was too obsessed with my own
It might have been - might have seen
That I never have been