Before I Count to Ten

I can write and not pretend
It's the advantage of getting older
I have nothing to impress
Neither on the outside nor inside

The sleepless night is crossing the sea
Because dreams travel with the wind
And at my window, it blows on the glass
To see if I'm awake

I got lost in a cross of words
They wrote down the wrong address for me
I already engraved my name on a bullet
I already tasted cannon fodder
I have everything under control
And someone said no, no, no, no, no
That now the wind is coming from another direction
Leave me the helm
And someone said no, no, no

What will lead me in the end
Will be my steps, not the path
Don't you see that you're always behind
When you chase after destiny

It's always the hand, not the dagger
It's never what could have been
It's not because you tell the truth
It's because you've never lied to me

I won't feel bad
If something doesn't go well for me
I've learned to skid
And crash into the wall
That life slips away from us
Like the smoke from that train
Like a kiss in a doorway
Before I count to ten

And I won't feel strange again
Even if I don't get to know myself
And I won't love you so much again
And I won't stop loving you
I stopped flying, I sank in the mud
And in so much mud, I found
Some warmth without your hugs
Now I know I'll never return