Chaos

When the world gets quiet and everybody's dreaming
I stay up late so I can finally hear myself think when I'm
Far from home, I, I call up God on the telephone
I say
Hey, there girl, I don't know what I'm doing
Think I made a mess of my life, my soul is twisted up and ruined
I feel so alone, and the silence feels like a dial tone

Some days I'm a fast car learning how to drive
Driving 'round the mountain, gonna lose my mind
Remind me where I'm going 'cause I don't know why
Why I can't get satisfied
Sometimes I'm a rollercoaster ride
I ride around the bend and I close my eyes
I don't know where I'm going, now I'm up too high
Make it stop, I'm tired of the chaos
The chaos

I'm over all the stories, bullshit shit I enabled
I thought my life would look a little bit more stable
There's an earthquake in my mind
While the wildfires burn outside

Some days I'm a fast car learning how to drive
Driving 'round the mountain, gonna lose my mind
Remind me where I'm going 'cause I don't know why
Why I can't get satisfied
Sometimes I'm a rollercoaster ride
I ride around the bend and I close my eyes
I don't know where I'm going, now I'm up too high
Make it stop, I'm tired of the chaos
The chaos (oh)
The chaos
Oh, the chaos

I don't know what's become of me (oh)
I miss the Jersey girl I used to be

Some days I'm a fast car learning how to drive
Driving 'round the mountain, gonna lose my mind
Remind me where I'm going 'cause I don't know why
Why I can't get satisfied
Sometimes I'm a rollercoaster ride
I ride around the bend and I close my eyes
I don't know where I'm going, now I'm up too high
Make it stop, I'm tired of the chaos (the chaos)
The chaos (ooh)
The chaos (oh)
Oh, the chaos

I close my eyes, I see my dreams are changing
I'm okay with it
I'm alright