Amnesia

So what if you never saw me cry, I said to you
You said to me: so what if you never caught me falling down
So what if we lived a lie, isn't that what lies are for?

Another destiny awaits
She said with the gun against her head
Another vacant thought another day gone by
Another precious penny saved
Isn't that what life is for

What happened to that simple little life I used to lead
When I think back now it seems so far away
It didn't feel like I had changed, I used to feel alive
It's funny how every second is a moment you survive

So what if I've never been ashamed
Those words she wrote in her suicide note
So what if I've always been heading straight downhill
Don't even try to point the blame
That's not what I'm here for