Calm Envy

Calm Envy

Calm Envy

Sinking into the sound of the pouring rain
降りしきる雨の音に沈みそうな
Furishikiru ame no oto ni shizumi-sō na
Whose dream is that promise for and whose dream is it
その約束は誰の夢で誰のための夢だろう
Sono yakusoku wa dare no yume de dare no tame no yume darō

I want to see all of you, I want to love all of you
I want to see all of you, I want to love all of you
I want to see all of you, I want to love all of you
You're acting strange
どうかしてるね
Dōka shiteru ne

The hand that holds mine always carries an unknown scent
つなぐ手と逆の手にはいつも知らない香りがしてる
Tsunagu te to gyaku no te ni wa itsumo shiranai kaori ga shiteru
I want to see all of you, I want to love all of you
I want to see all of you, I want to love all of you
I want to see all of you, I want to love all of you
Even though I can breathe properly, I feel like I'm falling apart
息はちゃんとできてるのに崩れそうになる
Iki wa chanto dekiteru noni kuzuresō ni naru

If you can love me deeper than words
言葉よりも深く愛してくれなら
Kotoba yori mo fukaku aishite kurenara
I can believe in only you in front of me
目の前にいるあなただけを信じていける
Me no mae ni iru anata dake o shinjite ikeru
Every time I touch the past you suddenly showed, it crumbles
ふいに見せた過去に触れるたびにもろく
Fui ni miseta kako ni fureru tabi ni moroku
Tears well up in the unfilled void
埋め尽くせない空白に涙浮かべ
Umezukusenai kuuhaku ni namida ukabe

Even if I seek solace, the you next to me seems to fade away from within
安らぎに甘えてても隣のあなたが私の中から途切れそうになる
Yasuragi ni amaetetemo tonari no anata ga watashi no naka kara togiresō ni naru

I want to see all of you, I want to love all of you
I want to see all of you, I want to love all of you
I want to see all of you, I want to love all of you
Drowning in a smile is the answer
答えは笑みに溺れ
Kotae wa emi ni obore
You don't love, the everyday shadow when it was lost
You don't love, the everyday shadow when it was lost
You don't love, the everyday shadow when it was lost
I carry it so much that it can't be erased
かき消せないほど抱えてる
Kakikesenai hodo kakaeteru

If the words I threw at you can love me
あなたに投げた言葉も愛してくれるなら
Anata ni nageta kotoba mo aishite kureru nara
I can believe in only you in front of me
目の前にいるあなただけを信じていける
Me no mae ni iru anata dake o shinjite ikeru
It hurts every time I touch the past you suddenly showed
ふいに見せた過去に触れるたびに痛む
Fui ni miseta kako ni fureru tabi ni itamu
I want to love even the empty space without me
私のいない空白まで愛したい
Watashi no inai kuuhaku made aishitai
I wipe away the tears so you won't notice
気付かれないように涙は拭うから
Kizukarenai yō ni namida wa nuguu kara
Don't laugh in front of me anymore
この以上私の前で笑わないで
Kono ijō watashi no mae de warawanaide

Rather than hiding goodbye between us
さよならを隠す二人じゃなく
Sayonara o kakusu futari ja naku
I want to cry goodbye together
さよならを泣く二人でいたい
Sayonara o naku futari de itai
I want you to forget rather than reminisce
思い返すより忘れて欲しい
Omoikaesu yori wasurete hoshii
And leave me in emptiness
そして私を空白に置いて
Soshite watashi o kuuhaku ni oite
Don't chase after the past days anymore
もう過ぎた日々を追ったりしないで
Mō sugita hibi o otta ri shinai de

Don't leave me anymore
もうこれ以上置いていかないで
Mō kore ijō oite ikanaide
At least
せめて
Semete
Don't leave me with a goodbye
さよならを握り眠る私の
Sayonara o nigiri nemuru watashi no
Extinguish my faint warmth like a cigarette
ほのかな熱をタバコのように消して
Honoka na netsu o TABAKO no yō ni keshite

To the one who loved the days that won't return
帰らない日々を愛した人よ
Kaeranai hibi o aishita hito yo