Colorblind

I was wrong and I'm sorry for that
Things just haven't been the same since I got my mind back
And I try to hide the pain, but I'm never good at that
You can love me, you can hate me, I just want my soul back
And if there really is no God, then who the fuck is in my head
Planting seeds of deceit? I guess this must be the end
They say the grass is always greener on the other side
But every time I try, I go colorblind

I've been having fuckin' trouble sleeping
Every thought that's in my head
Is tellin' me to lose my grip and just end it
No God to pray to, I have nothing left
I thought this life was something more than itself
I'm going crazy, can't trust myself
So please just let me go and try to find hope
And if I lose myself, I know I'll always be alone