Belated Divine Abortion

I watch the brooding skies
All hope is lost
I'm going to end my life
Upon a cross

A crown of thorns I wear
I writhe in pain
I perish slow as a martyr
And die in vain

Oh my God, so dark, the nameless one
Oh father please, help thy son
My God, why did you leave me alone?
Are you still my father?

I don't want to meet a fate
Of this cruel kind
'But you will die for all mankind!'

Why must I sacrifice my life
For other's deeds?
'There must be one scapegoat that bleeds for them!'

Why does a father wish death
For his own son?
'Upon the earth you were abandoned!'

Oh, I can't see why all this has to be
'Trust me, for I am your God!'
'Sacrifice your flesh and blood for me!'
Please answer me, what this fate will mean to me at all?
I want to know for what reason I was born
Only to die forsaken and forlorn?
'You will obey your father's decision!'

Belated divine abortion
A life without a sense

Darkness now embraces me
At the threshold of eternity
I curse God, as heavy thunderclouds gather

As an example how to die
A most senseless way
I will become a God on my own