Lampshade

i can feel my bones decay i haven't got a thing to say i never thought i could end up this way maybe i should have known but now my cover's blown i've been up for hours but my feet never touched the floor i can't pretend that i'm as funny as all you're friends so i'll keep this lampshade on my skull for one more night i've got a project car i've got a vcr i've got a hundred friends but i don't know where they are my life's a fantasy i'm just a wanna be another throw away contemporary enemy did you want me to be the life of the party i've made some mistakes so stop kicking yourself because i blame me it's still the same nothing's changed