Monster You Adore

My mind was young when the Sun would rise, oh
The pressure waited two seconds on my insides
But what do I call it now when it doesn't go away
And keep it underwater 'cause it surfaces pain?
But the days are long and the sky is falling
But no one sees it 'cause I hide it from you all
So here's my message in a bottle, I give it to the ocean to solve

I don't think I need this pain anymore
But I don't think that I can change, that's for sure
So go ahead and leave, I will always be the monster you adore
I don't think that I need this hate anymore

The light's been hiding, and my mind is in a dark place
I keep on fighting, but the timers on a fast pace
I need to know if anybody can hear me now
When the show is over, I wanna know that there's a home
Where someone like me can go
But I don't know, and I don't wanna end up alone

I don't think I need this pain anymore
But I don't think that I can change, that's for sure
So go ahead and leave, I will always be the monster you adore
I don't think that I need this hate anymore