Ulterior Motives

Living in the shadows
Of the ruins you left behind
Picking up the pieces
Of a broken mind
Ripped down every time I think I've found my feet
Wish it was easy for me to just pack and leave
I try to stand up
Can't control the heat

Why do I keep coming back for more?
Fallen down and out through a trapdoor

Cold to the bone I'm done
I'm paralyzed but I know I have to run
To save my soul, I gotta bust out
Stuck in this hole, no light bright enough to reach down

It's like I'm chewing barbed wire
To get the perfect smile
The taste of my blood
Is bittersweet but I'm hooked
It's like I'm chewing barbed wire
To get the perfect smile
The taste of my blood
Is bittersweet and I'm hooked

Burning image in my eyes
No remorse, no charge, no time for your crime
How do you walk free?
Everybody is blind
Too hard to act like things ain't fine
Too comfortable up on the fence
Sitting back in apathy at my own expense
No neutral, you can only oppose
Or choose to enable the pain to grow

It's like I'm chewing barbed wire
To get the perfect smile
The taste of my blood
Is bittersweet but I'm hooked
It's like I'm chewing barbed wire
To get the perfect smile
The taste of my blood
Is bittersweet but I'm hooked

What would I be without you?
You pick me up when I feel blue
Who's using who?
Do you need me more than I need you?

Now I know the truth
And I'm black and I'm bruised
I see ulterior motives control your moves

I think I'm better off alone
Far away from you, I need to get in my zone
It's a future I seek
Time to make a change before it's out of my reach