Nothing

Here I am again, I'm a full grown woman
Did everything that I thought that I wouldn't
But my heart feels young and my brain feels old
And my back hurts way too often, mm
Now I'm off my feet and on my knees
My boyfriend says that he's just way too good for me
But he's so evil, he's so mean
My girlfriend hates that I act like she's just make-believe
They wouldn't understand how complicated I can make it
I'm sedated every time we meet, but I see her on the street
I guess it's fine, every time I should be making love, I'm not
But I want everyone and everything

So I go-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh
I want contro-oh-oh-ol
I'll give it all to make me whole
But then I have nothing
No-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh
I'm all in so-oh-oh-oh
It's all my fault, I should've known
But then I have nothing
Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh
I want contro-oh-oh-ol
I'll give it all to make me whole
But then I have nothing
No-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh
I'm all in so-oh-oh-oh
It's all my fault, I should've known
But then I have nothing

This new type of love just isn't for me
I can't belong to somebody
This new type of love just isn't for me
'Cause I want everyone and everything
But then I have nothing