Soft Collapse

I've been talking to the ceiling again
It listens better than you did
Every word you carved in my skin
Still hums when I try to forgive

I tried to stay soft
But the world got in
Every kiss felt like confession
Every prayer a little sin

And I don't wanna fake being okay
But I still smile when I decay
You say it's healing, I call it disguise
We're both drowning, just different tides

I breathe in static, spit out gold
Pretend I'm younger than I'm old
My heart's a rusted satellite
Still catching ghosts from every fight

If I scream, will it sound like peace
Or just another song I'll never release?
You told me grace was learned in pain
But I'm too tired to play that game

I don't need saving, I need space
To find the truth behind my face
The halo bends, it doesn't shine
Your faith is yours, but this wreck is mine

So I'll walk alone where silence bleeds
Grow flowers out of what I need
It's not redemption, it's not regret
It's just the part you haven't met